GUILT TO REST

That Friday morning, I woke up knowing something was gonna happen.
Although not sure what exactly it will be, I was willing to go through the day ready for what will come.
Stopping myself from picking up his calls wasn’t working anymore. I knew he wasn’t good for me, but I just couldn’t help myself being around him.

I thought I was too strong to be vulnerable. After all, Joe and I had been together for a year and nothing had happened. So what at all could Kevin do differently. 

I don’t know about you guys, but one thing that pisses me off is when a guy tries to shoot his shot without building any friendship. Seriously, who does that? “Hello, I’m Sam, the guy from the matriculation ceremony. From the very first day I set my eyes on you, I knew you were mine”. Dude, chill ok. Instead of coming at me with a proposal, how about simply asking how I’m doing, my course of study, in short, just getting to know me better? 

Joe had never met Kevin, but I had casually mentioned him in one of our conversations. He clearly couldn’t have guessed my feelings because I didn’t say much. It meant that reintroducing Kevin into our conversation would require a lengthy explanation. Where do I even begin? How do I tell him that I have been hanging out with this guy I barely even talk about?.

Before you start criticizing me, understand that I was not pleased with my decision to keep it to myself. But I believed that was the best course of action. One thing has always been a problem in our relationship: Joe doesn’t know how to handle the truth. You’re in trouble if you lie to him, and even if you tell him the truth about anything that went wrong, you’ll still be in much more trouble.

Thanks to the numerous videos and messages I found. If you happened to look through my browser history at the time, all you’d discover were questions like “should I tell my partner everything, is kissing wrong, and what is the true definition of cheating?”.